Filling The Gaps

Being in love does not necessarily demand you to acquire equal interests, 

of which will most likely to associate you to each other.

You do not need to find a great deal of subject to be discussed about over dinner,

nor you have to prepare your "To-do List".

If both of you are veraciously connected to one another, 

even a silent conversation has its miraculous way to draw these two souls together.

Do not get overwhelmed by differences for they are just a sheer nonsense. 

Fill the gaps steadily

and be happy.

Coffee for two, please?

Dream on.

I want to be the world to you, but I can never be like one. 

A Tale of A Worthless Ring.

Hi! I'm Shira, 24 and I'm ready to spit out my 2 cents about what engagement is all about.  

What is engagement? It is a mini phase of which two soul mates take before they go further to the big day - marriage. Some may say "It's an important baby step before marriage as it borrows you some time to know each other and to prepare what is necessary, to really digest and think about the life ahead..and so on.." I say no. 

"Ok la bertunang, boleh fikir masak-masak about our marriage"..What?? or..

 "I kumpul duit masa bertunang untuk kahwin."

Can we not know our partners without getting engaged? Why do we need to depend on that fiance/fiancee status just to dig in on our partner's personale better? What if fate tells you a different ending, when one of you suddenly feels emotionally unattached to one another? "Kita putus tunang. I tak serasi dengan you." Wow! I'm awfully mesmerized! 

Should you marry your soul partner, the plan is already at the tip of your fingers. If you are 100% sure and prepared about taking your partner into your life, why do you need to 'makan angin' on that shaky vague phase? Unless you're engaged for a short period of time, it's acceptable. Kot. hehe. 

Kalau tak cukup duit, buat apa nak bertunang? Baik saving untuk kahwin kan. Jimat belanja. Orang sekarang bertunang pun over, dah macam akad nikah! lol! Seriously. Skip this part, and you will not need to suffer spending a big amount of money on the engagement dowries and the ring. Brilliant! :)

I'm sorry, but I honestly do not see the significance of engagement. It is very risky and pretty costly. 

Good night! :)

Drowned in the midst of crowds. Such is life!

I'm fully aware that life alone does not revolve around me.  Having to walk on the same ground and to suck up the same air greedily- I feel insecure.  How can I be sure that it's not the seamy side of life? I need to give myself the kiss of life.


*lame random panting before I go idle on the bed. Good night! 

May 8 Statement.

I used to be mute before. So naive. So pathetic. 

I guess I HAVE to be mute again, minus the latter.

When mouth is sealed shut, the head may utter the words silently. 

I might keep all the emotions, anger, happiness or any sorts of moods to myself. 

Less talk means less argument. 

It's better to have it start from its root, isn't it?

Welcome home, 2006.

Me talking to the moon. Not really.

We were strangers before, weren't we? 

Like, a total stranger. 

I never knew what your real name was,

how coarse your voice was,

I was totally clueless when it came to describing the whole physique of yours.

Oh boy.. of those past days

you were just an invisible Sharnaaz Ahmad to me.

Talking about eye candy? 

You were not even close to it. 

But what we are today?

Aren't we one solid component?

We both know each other better than ourselves do.

I know your likings

and you know mine.

How odd...

You are my heartbeat now. 

See..

Life is unpredictable.

Not a single soul in this spatial universe has all the ability to foresee the future.

Not you. Not me. 

Isn't it lovely this way?

Being able to survive the hurdles with a perplexed state of mind,

I thank God.

Strolling in Memories

You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be

Read THROUGH the letters.

"You wander from room to room

Hunting for the diamond necklace

That is already around your neck!"

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"You suppose you are the trouble

But you are the cure

You suppose that you are the lock on the door

But you are the key that opens it

It's too bad that you want to be someone else

You don't see your own face, your own beauty

Yet, no face is more beautiful than yours."

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"Your task is not to seek for love

but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself

that you have built against it."

-Rumi-

No fun in here!

So much in love with my current tumblr theme at this moment. 

Since I always running out of words,

 tongue gets slipped away easily,

so yeah. Tumblr it is. 

Hell yeah more fun in here!

It may doesn't look appealing to some people but they always find a way to make a mockery about every single shit you do, don't they?
 So why on earth should I give them a hoot?

Invalid Equation.

There are no other souls who can perpetually provide us with happiness and joy, but ourselves..

because  '1+1 = 2'  had long ago reached its expiry date. 

A Splendid Slumber Party.

Sunday, 3.16 a.m

Tension of gulping down too much sweets is building up in my head. It seems like it is going to explode at any minutes from now. I should have rushed to bed but I refused to do so and masked the sleepiness by flipping through pictures saved in my little blacky camera.

 Tonight is not just like any other ordinary Saturdays. Confronting loneliness and dull ambience is never a pleasant feeling to endure. So I came up with this idea of inviting a few friends over my place and we dined together. Needless to say, the night did not end at the plates and desserts. We then continued to some nasty karaoke session. With just one click on You Tube, we travelled back to the 90s. Some of the songs (almost all actually, hehe) stabbed our throats real hard as we tried to catch up with all the chords and the pitch. I burnt my calories by jumping around the cold wooden-colour floor as crazy as a loon. Ah..blast!  Next stop is Pictionary! A board game which gives me an adrenaline rush, ever. Played 2 rounds, lost the battle for the whole twin runs. Bummer! 

Head spinning like riding a roller coaster. 

Subhanallah. I fall in love every time I take a glimpse at these carnations.

They left me just a small of portion of my chicken pot pie. :)

Chocolate fondant cake topped with vanilla ice cream. Best served while it's still warm.

Red Velvet Whoopie Pie! ( additional picture). Baked this last week but forgot to upload the picture. Pardon the narcissism.  

Toodles! xx

Soul-made Remedy.

The world sounds a little noisy. I hear birds chirping, clock ticking, chill wind blowing.

'Ahh..too cold outside,' I mumbled. Tea is still hot. The Corrs is still singing, looping around the iTunes playlist.

I have an issue. Like in a chronic state, it continues. It is not that I haven't tried to look for any antidotes to cure or at least to rejuvenate the pain. I did. It worked only on the superficial while the root of all this sickness is dominating the deeper layer. 'Poor prognosis,' I thought. Too bad, it has made itself familiar to me. It has been staying in the inside of me for so many seasons without giving me absolute reasons. Not even one. Pretty close to play as an uninvited guest. 

Before I went off to bed last night, I clearly saw what had happened earlier that morning. I lied on my left and slowly touched the wall. 2 pint-size corroded handicrafts remain on the white wall. Tears welled up but I managed to stop those salty water before they got discharged.  I initially flamed the blame on the world. 'Why can't this whole gigantic universe bear with my flaws?'.  In a fraction of time, I hauled myself, the entire me, onto an imaginary racing horse, travelled the past. 

Checkpoint 1 : Mistake

Checkpoint 2 : Mistake 

Checkpoint 3 : Mistake

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Tired of counting down the errors down the memory lane, I jumped off the horse and it vanished in a split second. Again, I found myself still lying on the same bed. 'This is all about limits. I have my own range of limit and so does everybody. I dislike when people crossing my frontier and so does everybody.'  

I have crossed yours too, for the umpteenth times. I was too desperate to be the only one, never to be compared and belittled. I challenged myself along the journey. To blend in with all the good things is obviously not an easy action and sometimes I have to cross the boundary to drag the good qualities into a visible spot. Bad attitudes are intensifying and I must dial it back. 

Wordless Wednesday #1

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*it's so unusual to have a wordless tongue.