What goes around, comes around.

When honesty is undeniably a  true lie. when laugh is just a simple fake joy. and when smile is so much an artificial curve, lovely nicked on the face - what “second chance” has to offer?

As much as i hate giving my second chance away to someone I’m devoted into, so much i have to tell myself that perhaps, when the right time comes, trough the toughest day of my life, all chances I’m dying for are just one lurking desire. Unacknowledged. Saved by the bell?  Dream on, woman.

So play it well.

p/s:  I just came to know that sometimes, when too much bad deeds are all settle and done in one quick way, a “simple sorry” just doesn’t cut it. It cuts though, but not that deep. It scars a little, but it affects the whole of me. Alas, I’ve painted myself into a corner. Well done.

Bacalah dengan hati.

Lemah itu adalah bahagian dari diriku,

kerasnya hati jauh sekali dari jiwaku,

salahku, silapku, kekuranganku,

lembutkanlah teguranmu.

Airmata ku janganlah kau hinakan

esakan ku janganlah disalah tafsirkan,

deraiannya janganlah kau siniskan,

kerana belum pernah pujukanmu ku tagihkan,

Pernah kita berantakan,

kecil besar isunya bukanlah alasan,

salah siapa janganlah dibangkitkan,

tanpa jemu “maaf” ku dahulukan.

Buat pujaanku,

tak mampu aku hadiahkan kesempurnaan,

apatah lagi kebahagiaan yang tiada pengakhiran, 

hanya perubahan yang mampu ku berikan,

dan kesungguhkan ku janganlah dipertikaikan.

Amarahku, sedih hatiku,

Biarlah Tuhan saja yang tahu,

Diamku bukanlah marah,

diamku tanda mengalah,

diamku tanda berserah.